Taking control of our lives

Believed it or not, but we are the master of our own life. Although there are some contributing factors that we could not control, we are supposed to be the one who shapes, makes or breaks our life or create our own happiness.

From how we dress, eat, people we want to meet, people we refused to see, which concert we want to enjoy and which car we want to purchase, its all comes back to one thing, us.

Throughout my 34 years of life, I keep on bumping into people who wants to, on a certain leverl, have a control over my life. From my own mother (well, what can I say, everybody's mom is the same), to my so called friends (erk seriously?), to ex-boy friends (while we still in our demented relationships) and even complete strangers.

About almost everybody who has mouth, would completely have anything to say about how I should lead my life.

"Oh you should buy this P car coz monthly payment is cheap and service is easy" (This when I was planning to buy my car 6 years back)

"Buy house near my house la so we can be neighbours" (So you can snoop on me??!!! No thanks!)

"I really like if you could stop talking now. You annoys me" (This while going out with my ex-boyfriend. He would rather 'talk' to his BB than talk to his alive and kicking gf. sheesh!)

And the list just go on and on and on. The best part is (apart from my mother who forbade me from taking up Law in uni), these people would took offence if I did not follow their advices.

It's like they have some sort of authority over me or something. Even funnier, these people would called themselves as my best friends (erk, I do have my own best friends, thank you) and would try to convince me (more like themselves) that I really need to heed those advices or the world (my world and their's) would come crumbling down.

Funnier even, my best friends also do not act like that. They would listen and give their advice whenever they feel I needed it and never say "I told you so" if I failed. That is what great friends should do, I strongly feels.

It's not that I don't take advices, I do. I was adviced by my doctor this morning on seeking happiness in life, in enjoying life and making the best of it. He told me (which I agrees to) that I need to stop all the negative thoughts and start doing things that really matter and really make me happy.

This is the second time a medical doctor gives that sorts of advice to me, when I came seeking for some medications for my ailments. First such advice came about 7 years back when I was still working in KL.

My doctor told me this morning, if I'm not happy at work, I would feel stressed and depressed. He asked me if I wanted MC for the day, but I said no need. I would gets even depressed if I stayed at home. He said, I should do something about my life if I already feels depressed or anxious even while at home.

The thing is, I was indeed stressed and depressed for many months. And yesterday I was so stressed, I sort of caused anxiety to some of my friends (which I'm not proud of) and one even went the extra mile to make me smile.

Whatever it is, I must say, I'm proud of myself for shaping my own life thus so far. All without causing harm to others and still keeps the big chunks of people I've met throughout my life, as friends.

Looking forward to the coming year...